Monday, February 4, 2008

Head aches, cramps, and the blues

Yes, I have all 3 today. I'm trying to "love myself" but I just can't get away from my pity party today. Do you ever have days like that?

Now, in my defense, I am hormonal! My "friend" is visiting, just got here last night...arrrrgh! It's been one of those days when I had to rely on what I knew was true, because I just wasn't "feeling" good. As I drove to work this morning, tears just streamed down my face. I can't even pinpoint a good reason. I was just sad. I definitely wasn't feeling beautiful, more like beautifully bloated.

Chocolate sounds good on a day like today. Yes, chocolate will make me "feel" better.....WRONG. I'm glad now I didn't eat chococlate. Chips sound good too. Yes, chips will make "feel" better.....WRONG AGAIN. I did eat some cheetos...and NO I don't "feel" better. So, why did I eat them????? I don't know.

What the heck is up with me? Please tell me someone can relate! I knew there was no food or material thing or even a person that could make me feel better. I even called my friend Amy because she always makes me laugh and smile...she wasnt' home, so I left her a message and while I was leaving her a message, I saw a dead deer on the side of the road. That made me cry too. Puhleeese! Cut me a break here!

Ok, Melissa....time to crawl up out of that pit you jumped in today. So, right now at 4:27 pm, I'm climbing out. Pity party and self indulgence is over. Once again, my way wasn't very successful. I'm so thankful that God is always there waiting on me to come around. Here I am Lord.

You see, there are days when I am super motivated and I feel gr8! Then there are days that I just want to crawl back in bed and ignore the world. That's life. For much of today I allowed my joy to be robbed and I chose to sulk in those feelings. True, I didn't feel good today and I really was just sad. But I didn't have to stay that way. I visited my friend, Glynnis Whitwer's blog today. She wrote about having the blues and 3 quick things we could do to feel better. (watch a funny video, listen to some music, and read some Words from my Creator) Even though the day is almost over, I still have a choice to change the rest of my day for the better. I did those 3 things Glynnis suggested. Also just writing in my blog right now has helped a ton too.

Now it's time to take my sweet daughter to dance class. I still don't feel all gr8, but I do have a change in my perspective.

What do you do when you have the blues? Do ever find that your choices aren't the greatest when you are focused on the negative or when you are sad and blue?

Well, no matter how we feel, let's keep remembering.....we are beautiful.

Have a beautiful day:)



Julie said...

Hi Melsa! I love you and your blog. Your honesty inspires me and your perseverance reminds me to also persevere!! You are BEAUTIFUL inside and out!!!


Kelly said...

Hi Melissa,
I do find my choices aren't the best when I feel blue. Last night I was at a ladies event at church...I got there early to help set up and decorate some tables, etc..and after that was done, I sat by myself at a table while about 12 other ladies were milling around, talking to each other and laughing, and I felt like the lone ranger. The enemy whispered "no one likes you, no one wants to talk to you or sit by you" and I almost felt like running out the door...I took out my notebook and checkbook size Bible I carry in my purse and just started reading about Jesus washing the disciple's feet and serving (that was fresh in my mind from reading it earlier in the week). I made myself stay put, then a few minutes later, an acquaintaince came in and said "Oh can I sit by you?" (YES, PLEASE!!) and lady I know in her late 60's came over and said hello and gave me a hug, and then it was suddenly okay. But really, it was okay before, because Jesus was with me...sometimes, I think it's the devil, our hormones, moods, feelings and flesh that really lie to us big time, and those things are really hard to fight at times. It's then trying to remember verses like "He will never leave us or forsake us" help me!
PS I think your pictures are ALL beautiful!