So, here I am, 2 weeks after my last real post, and feeling more "not beautiful" than ever. Now hear me on this....I know who I am in Christ....I know who I am in the eyes of my Creator....I know the Truth.......not feeling it though! And it's really a result of my poor choices and circumstances.
I couldn't exercise and won't be able to do strenuous physical cardio activity for quite some time. But I haven't eaten in a way that has helped too much either. While I've had some tasty meals made by some great cooks and well meaning friends, I definitely did not do what it takes to love my body and drop the excess fat that is keeping me from being my best.
I don't ever want to confuse weight loss with beauty. But I feel so much better when I am about 15-20 pounds lighter than I am today. Today I feel fat. I feel frumpy. My pants are tight. It is the lack of discipline during hard times that got me this way. As I've stated in previous posts, I'm committed. I believe I'm beautiful and aim to live that way. Not treating my beautiful God made self poorly. I never intend to mess up. This is my life struggle.
Thank the Lord, He does not condemn me for my mistakes. He knows my heart and knows how hard I try. So, I'm thankful for today. For a brief time, during these 1st 2 weeks of recovery, I lost my vision and focus. I'm back. (again)
How about you? I need partners here. I need encouragement. I need accountability. And I want all of these things. I don't care if you are on Weight Watchers, LA Weight Loss, Slimfast, the Hollywood Hoodia Grapefruit Diet, or Dexatrim....if you want/need encouragement and accountability for your journey in weight loss (or gain...bless your heart), self image, feeling beautiful and good about yourself....then I ask you please to post here. Share your struggles. Share your goals. Two are stronger than one. Three even better..."because a triple braided cord is not easily broken." (Ecclesiastes)
On Monday, I'll begin posting scripture, goals, goal date, and any inspirational thought that comes to mind. I'd love to hear yours too. If you are a Christian (not required) please also include a verse, prayer, or book that has helped you. And if there is a story you'd like to share, I'd love to have you as a guest poster sometime.
Right now, I'm claiming the verse that is at the top of this page..."I am fearfully and wonderfully made." I fear God because I don't want to disappoint Him. I'm wonderful because He made me...and that was no mistake.
Have a great, good, healthy, beautiful weekend. Pray about joining me and setting some realistic, God driven, healthy living goals. If you are interested, let me know.
Oh yea, to answer the question asked in the post title..."Am I Beautiful?" Well, the answer to that is easy. "YES!"Love,
***My next give away will be on this blog. Tune in Thursday, March 6th for details.