Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Stuff

It's been a while since I've blogged. Let me tell you why.

My mood and emotional state affect my blogging. I wish they didn't, but they do.

Last week and over the weekend I was just really down. I could tell you that I don't know why. But that would be dishonest. I do know why. My husband and I were not in sync. We were in a disagreement and we were not seeing eye to eye. My feelings were hurt and I just shut down.

Now why is that? Why is it that just because Jeff and I were having a quarrel that I had trouble functioning in the other areas of my life?

I don't know about you, but when part of my life isn't running well (especially my marriage), it causes the rest of my life to shut down. This is probably not healthy, but it's just how I am. I dwell. I worry. I can't rest until everything is worked out. I just want peace!

Well, I'm happy to report that all is well today. Jeff and I have made up. Neither of us were sleeping well during our time of disagreement.. And it felt so good to make up, talk about our feelings, and apologize. So now I'm back to blogging again. When there was a riff between us, there was a block in my mind and I just couldn't blog much.

On to other things. I started a Teen Blog this week. It is called Beautiful Girl (www.BeautifulGirlP31.blogspot.com) and it is devoted to teen girls and helping them feel loved, valued, and beautiful. I had a devotion running this week on the Proverbs 31 Teen site (www.RadRevolution.blogspot.com) and I have felt God calling me into ministry to teen girls. So, I'm entering into unchartered territory for me. A little nervous, but excited. If it just helps one...then I'll feel satisfied. I would love input and suggestions.

Lastly. My back is out. I can barely walk. I'd treasure your prayers. I've never had anything like this happen to me... ever! I don't know how or why. It just happened. And it hurts. Bad.

I must go. My husband is back inside. He's been working on my car (in the pouring rain, thunder, and lightning) because it just quit working today! It's after 10 at night, so I should give him my attention:)

You are beautiful. Praying you know it and feel it!
Love,

Melissa

4 comments:

Brittany said...

I'm the same way. I feel like I'm in a fog. Unfortunately I'm married to a man who doesn't like to talk. I'm glad things are all smoothed out and I'm glad you're back to blogging. I've missed you!!

Rina said...

Hi there,

I just want to also encourage you that your blog really does encourage people. Well, it encourages me. I sometimes just go in quickly and read and carry on, but it is just so uplifting to read. Sometimes it helps having someone being so open about their lives.

Hope your back gets better, I will pray for that. Trust that God will bring healing.

Lotsa blessings!
Rina

Anonymous said...

I am totally the same way! If my husband and I get into a tiff it effects everything I do. I think that perhaps it shows our dedication and importance to our relationship with our husbands. So with that said I forgive you for not posting, but glad your back. Speaking of back, hope yours is better soon.
Sweet Blessings,
Margaret

Joyful said...

Hey Melissa...missed you. Sorry to hear about your past few days, but glad all is well now. Praying for your back - *ouch*. I can put mine out by doing the silliest thing - like opening a dresser drawer or tucking in the sheets when making the bed.

Praying for you my sweet friend.
Love & hugs,
Joy
PS. I e-mailed all my friends with teen girls and encouraged them to check out your new blog!