Friday, November 28, 2008

Beautiful in November

I cannot believe that it is already the end of November!!!! Where is 2008 going so quickly???? IDK. Ha! My kids would be so proud.....

I have been previewing 2 books for Proverbs 31. When we consider selling a book, we preview it first. The last 2 I've read have been really good. I think the reason LeAnn, my amazing boss, gave them to me to preview was because she knows how I feel so strong about a woman's inner beauty. These books were based on just that. They were very good and I hope to tell you more about them in the near future. But even more so, I want to communicate how beautiful we ALL are to God.

I've been quite vocal about the weight gain I've had this year. I have no one to blame but me. My weight has gone up. My clothes are tight. My appearance is not what I'd like it to be. But my God thinks I'm beautiful this November. My Father loves me just the way I am today. November, 2008. Beautiful.

Doesn't that just warm your heart? Doesn't that just make you feel amazing? It should. No matter what you feel like. No matter what others think of you. You are beautiful. I am beautiful. And we have much to be thankful for.

The most beautiful woman in the world to me right now is my mom. She could not make it to my house for Thanksgiving because she was not feeling well today. She began chemotherapy last week and it took it's toll on her this week. Physically she is feeling quite crappy. I would have been okay if she would have taken the past 3 days off and just focused on herself. But she didn't.

Mom's dressing/stuffing is the best! Her macaroni and cheese is the best. And we were ALL looking forward to her cooking...especially since her cancer diagnosis has left us wondering what the next year will bring. She was not able to make it today. And that made me so very sad. But her cooking did make it. And that made me sad too.

Mom, you amaze me. Even though you did not feel like cooking, you did. Even though you would rather have stayed in bed, you didn't. Your love for your children, grandchildren, and family surpasses anything I've seen. You prepared and cooked and served your family, yet you stayed home. I love you so much. You are so beautiful. I pray I become just like you. The Lord blessed me with such a wonderful mother.

Happy Thanksgiving! If you are reading this, I pray you experienced true beauty today. Because you are beautiful No matter what the day, what the weight, what the thoughts. God has plans for you. They are good. We are made in His image. How cool is that? Pretty darn cool if you ask me!

On these last few days of November, believe in yourself, will you? Believe what God believes about you. You are amazing. You are the apple of His eye. And you are beautiful.

Happy Thanksgiving. I am thankful for all of my blessings, especially the people in my life....both in person and in cyber space....Love you!




Joyful said...

Wow - your Mom IS amazing! What love. What sacrifice when she was no doubt feeling rotten. What a beautiful demonstration of her love for you. I'm sure those dishes she made never tasted so good and you savored every bite seasoned with her thoughts of you.

You have a precious Mom my friend...and she has a very precious daughter too. Enjoy your day together today.

Love, hugs and prayers,

Amy L Brooke said...

I am continuing to pray for you mother and for you and your family as you walk through this. What a gift of love that she went ahead and prepared the food.

Amy said...

Angela - I just read your article you wrote about anxiety/depression . And no, right now, I don't feel beautiful at all. It is almost like I teamed with you in writing the article. I too, put on a mask EVERY day because I want others to think differently of me. Not someone who melts in a puddle at home, someone whose patience wears so thin that her children don't even like her anymore (at least that's what the enemy wants me to believe), someone who feels like because of her outward apperance (weight at an all time high) she could not possibly be loved or accpeted. I heard Nicole Sponberg's song the other day called Ressurrection. I immediately thought I had helped her write that song as well. I have struggled now for 8 years. I have taken medicine but it doesn't seem to be helping and I am too ashamed to really sit down with my doctor because I haven't really even taken the mask off for even her. People looking in on my life would think I had it all together. Beautiful children, great husband, nice home, a job that allows me to work from home, and I could go on and on. Then WHY do I feel so miserable all the time??? Thank you for letting the ones that are suffering beside you that it is not a shame to say you are having problems. Of course I am saying that to you right now and hiding behind a keyboard but will I really do something about it. I don't know if I will ever in this life time feel beautiful. :(