Thursday, February 19, 2009

Beee-Yoooo-Tifff-Fullllll

Yep, that's how I'm feeling today. I may not look it. And no one may agree. But I feel it. And that makes me happy because it's been a long time since I really felt this good.

I haven't lost a bunch of weight. I probably don't look much different. But, I feel so good, so healthy, so happy. My mom still has cancer. My life is still chaotic. I still have loads of laundry to fold. We still are financially hurting. But, I feel better than I've felt in a quite a while.

For the last month, I've decided to not worry so much about what I weigh. Yes, I'd like to lose 30, but I asked myself, "what if that never happens?" And so I decided to just bless myself. With good health, quality time with those I love, and exercise that I enjoy.

I feel good. Better than I've felt in a really long time. Oddly enough, I am exercising almost every day...4-6 miles a day, 6 days a week. I'm eating 5 small snacks/meals a day and then a small supper. 1 multi-vitamin, my lexapro, and 8 cups of water. And a few diet colas. (I say diet cola because the "cola" is cheaper that "coke". And it tastes just as good.) The caffeine free diet cola is my treat every night.

My relationships are also in order. (for the moment) I've been working super hard on my marriage. One way I've done this is by taking "the Love Dare". It's changed me. That's all I'll say for now. I'll be writing more about "The Love Dare" later.

Do you feel beautiful? You know feelings are fickle. For so long I did not feel beautiful. And I believed my feelings. Feelings are not who you are. I know that now.

God made you. He has great plans for you. He doesn't want us to waste our time on "feelings". We are blessed. In the words of my grandpa....."hunney, you are beee yooo tifff fullll!"

Blessings Beautiful Friends,

Melissa

4 comments:

Chef Diane said...

Melissa,

Wow, if I didn't before I read that, I do now. What energy you gave me and a boost.!
Valentines day was hard for me because it was the first one without my husband. So I decided to make all my energy into making my boys my sweethearts. It was great and I did feel so beautiful inside.
Life is hard, but God is good. The lighter we take it the better it can be.
Love ya my friend and the picture of you and the hubby is great. Also good for you taking the love dare.
Hugs,
Diane

Angie said...

I will admit I passed over this blog earlier this week just because "weight issues" is what stood out most as I glanced at the discription. I have learned that what may seem to be a topic not relating to me, turns out to be exactly what I need to see.
Because...as I looked back and saw the "self image" part I knew God was once again trying to show me..this is for you.
Working on my self image is one challenge ahead of me. Baby steps..I have a lot of baby steps to take but anywhere I can find encouragement is a true blessing.
Proverbs 31 has been a big blessing to me this week. Right now I am an empty sponge wanting to absorb anything positive I can on my road to healing.
I have realized this week that being transparent can be such a blessing. I see that in so many of you women and it has been so encouraging to me.
I look forward to returning here and being blessed by you.

Julie Gillies said...

Hi Melissa,

I'm right there with ya, girl, living a healthy lifestyle and doing my best. Your post reminds me of a Michael Buble' song called "I'm Feeling Good". :)

Blessings to you!

Srini said...

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